Archive for July, 2014

“Anger is an acid that can do more harm to the vessel in which it is stored than to anything on which it is poured.”

It is apparent I struggle. A lot. With everything and anything that I seem to be able to struggle with. I spend a lot more time dwelling on the bad things and being overwhelmed by anger and sorrow, that I don’t pay as much attention to all of the beautiful and amazing things in my life. I let everything bad destroy the power of all the good that surrounds me. And I’ve grown tired of it.

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It is time that I commit to myself.

It is time to make everything better, myself. Time to get this revised draft of BM reworked so my beta readers can read it, and I can make final adjustments before getting my query letters ready. I’m giving myself until February for this. I am a writer and I have no one to blame but myself for not being further along in my career.

It’s also time that I take control of my health again. My disease, my weight, my mental health. All of it.

Time to take back my happiness, most of all. 

It is time I embrace the ridiculously amazing life that I have been given.

 

~Angel

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“I like beautiful melodies telling me terrible things.” – Tom Waits.

My butt is appropriately kicked into writing gear. This could be the result of a few things:

+ Best Friend is making me give her new chapters every week or a new short story or something to actually PROVE I’m writing (and making me stick to a deadline).

+ Making my brain think for the interview, as well as blogging a bit more, and finally getting Hail to the Geek, Baby up and running, has all given me the proper brain-button protocol to make writing easier and not so foggy.

+ I’m upset a lot lately, with a growing mountain of stress, and I hide from it all with words.

So yeah. Words have been my friend lately. They may not be the best words ever, but I’m working on it. I’m moving forward. I’m writing my little black heart out; pouring all my troubles out of my and into the ink.

Actually, I’ve finally started figuring out where I want to go with this BM revision. I understand my problem with it: it isn’t dark enough. That may sound weird to some, but to me it makes perfect sense. I’ve been trying to write it in a way that it shouldn’t be. It’s a borderline horror and dark comedy if anything, and I haven’t been treating it that way. I wrote it too lightly. It’s time I let the darkness have a turn with it.

Other than some terrible real life news, though, I had a good weekend for the most part, and I think that’s what helped me to realize my manuscript errors and revision must-haves.

Let’s see how this revision goes, shall we? Maybe we’ll have a book ready to send off to agents soon.

~Angel

Part One – Angel Young: The Dark Inside

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Part Two – Angel Young: Moments of Light

 

Go check them out! We discuss quite a bit!

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[And since we know that dreams are dead,

and life turns plans up on their head,

I will plan to be a bum,

so I just might become someone.]

Here is yet another project update to let everyone know what’s going on:

Interview: Friday I wrapped up a two part interview about fun things like Sjogren’s, writing, travel, etc. Should be a good read whenever they’re up and ready. I’ll be sure to post a link whenever it’s up.

Writing: Even when it isn’t at the most appropriate time, I am always greatly to my muse for poking around in my brain and making me want to write. The last two days have been like that. I’ve been keeping a pen and note pad in my pocket while I’m at work, because scenes are just playing out in my head for a new story, as well as current projects, and I have to jot them down. I’m also about to start serious revisions on my project, code name BM, that I’ve been working on for publication. Cross all crossable things that this goes well.

Plus, I’m going to enter a nonfiction writing contest. I doubt I will win, but I think trying will be good for me. Get back into that mode of submitting and getting over this recent fear of people reading my work. I used to be confident. Now I’m constantly worried about not being good enough, despite any positive feedback. I need to relax a little.

Art: I made myself do a sketch, just one little sketch, last night. I’m out of practice. I have projects I need to be working on, but I just don’t have much faith in myself and it makes me put things off. I need to let go of that worry and just accept that the only way to improve is to continue practicing.

Photography: I’m so behind on shoots it’s ridiculous, but I’m working on it. Most of the problem is time management related. I’m putting projects together at least, so that’s always good.

 

So, that’s about it for right now. A lot, and yet nothing much. Now, back to the muse.

~Angel

 

As a writer, I am also an avid reader. This is true for most every writer honestly. Two basic tips every writer gets about becoming a writer is: Write a lot, and read a lot. That tends to be where you start to figure out how to write, and what makes good writing. I’ve become rather picky as a reader, because I can’t stand poor writing. We learn to mimic and then develop our own writing styles from our various adventures into books.

Here are some of the writers that have shaped me, or are currently still teaching me a thing or two:

1.) J.K. Rowling

Where do I even begin? I can easily say this – I will never forget when I was a kid, and my mom and I were reading the end of Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets (we took turns reading the book to each other), and how excited it made me. Especially that showdown in the Chamber itself. Whoa, buddy. I couldn’t sleep because I was so into it, and I remember being desperate for the next book. That’s a damn good writer, in my opinion, to stick with a kid like that. I was like eight or nine when I read that book. And while I read all the time, I know that was my first experience where I was deeply affected by what I just read.

But aside from my childhood adoration, Rowling is a damn good creator of worlds. And not just that – she beautifully stitched her world into our world, in such a way that I still want to believe. Enough for seven books – not counting the extras like Fantastic Beasts and Where To Find Them, etc – as well as eight movies, plus the now TWO theme parks… That’s a pretty powerful world, rich with details and developed perfectly.Harry_Potter_and_the_Chamber_of_Secrets_(US_cover)

2.) Stephanie Kuehnert

If you haven’t read “I Wanna Be Your Joey Ramone” or “Ballads of Suburbia“, go and do it right now. Well, maybe not read them at this exact second. But locate them. Buy them or borrow them or whatever it is you need to do to get your hands on these books. Then, you can fully appreciate how much I adore her writing. Her books feel real and raw, and less like fiction than reading a memoir or even recalling your own past. She has an eloquent way of writing, with idiomatic dialogue and descriptions.

Just trust me. I’ve never recommended these books to anyone who hasn’t loved them.

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3.) Cassandra Clare

Another weaver-of-worlds to admire, Cassandra Clare has beautifully connected her Shadowhunter worlds in The Mortal Instruments series and the Infernal Devices, not to mention the Bane Chronicles and the not yet released Dark Artifices (which ties in nicely with the rest in the final Mortal Instruments book, City of Heavenly Fire.) And that’s something I greatly admire. Some writers couldn’t handle having a multiple series universe, let alone trying to occasionally allow those characters to interact or the decisions in one book series have a reaction with an entirely different series. That’s pretty awesome to me.

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4.) A.S. King

Now here is a writer I truly envy, because her writing is amazing. Like, seriously. One of the most powerful scenes I’ve ever read was in her book “Please Ignore Vera Dietz” – there is a scene involving her father that struck home with me so hard, I had to close the book a moment just to breathe. But beyond that, there is something so beautiful and different about her style that I adore, and her characters are so strong, even when they’re weak. They’re real and developed and I love them. I’d recommend her books if you’re a writer looking to read something great to influence your style, or even if you’re just a reader looking for something new to love.

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Now, there are several other writers I could add to this, and I probably will do another round before long (seriously, how can I discuss writers I admire and NOT mention Stephen King, Joe Hill, or Jack London?), but for now this list is a good representation.

Stay tuned for more wonderful and super-dee-duper exciting updates on health, writing, and more.

~Angel