Archive for June, 2013

Pictures and details and all that wonderful jazz from my adventures in Orlando shall have to wait. This autoimmune mess is tired and lazy. Ha.

But I will throw this out there – with the series of horrible awful things that are going on around this time – Skylar leaving, my dog dying, Eric’s death anniversary, and soon Whitney’s birthday (on top of normal bullshit such as work and whatnot) – I had hoped getting away from it all would help. And, for the most part, it did. But coming home, tired and miserable, knowing I had to dive right back into the day job and start in for my new collaboration – A Thousand Lives Review – plus a trillion other things… it broke my heart. I think I was even more depressed than last time, and I cried when I was leaving Universal. Plus it was a rough trip home – lost my boarding pass during security stuff, almost lost my replacement, hateful people on the plane… blah. And I just did NOT want to come home. Wah wah wah. I know. I sound like a spoiled brat. But I had a break from being Angel Young, miserable office monkey and Sjogrens slave. I needed that break. Coming back to reality was a slap in the face and I haven’t taken it very well at all.

But then, I start to remember just who I am..

AdventureI remember I am this kickass individual that has come so close to greatness, so close to everything I’ve wanted from this life, that I could taste it. I’m a driven gal with an illogical amount of determination. I was being interviewed for my writing before I graduated high school and busting my ass to get somewhere. Why on EARTH would I want to hide away in a theme park every single day, when I have so many more other adventures to go on? (Don’t get me wrong… If you offered me a chance to go to Universal, I would IMMEDIATELY jump on it.)

The point of the matter is, kids, I got some interesting news. Stars aligning; fate staging a great moment in my life. I was down and out, then received just the news I needed to get me in gear. That on top of stumbling onto this wonderful interview Wyman did with me back in 2009, it all sorta reminded me just how incredible my life can be sometimes. The bad can cloud the good.

Anyway, check out that interview as well as A Thousand Lives Reviews, then stay tuned for a proper ‘I’m back’ post.

 

~Angel

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“I’ll be dead before the day is gone.”

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Taken in my field earlier.

Stress is a happy little erosion eating every single bit of happiness from my life. I lose sight of everything because I can’t get a grip on anything, and before I know it, life is spiraling out of my control. It’s crunch time. I don’t need this right now. And it never fails – one step forward, ten steps back. Get something handled or some good news, only to have it all followed up by a series of bad. No matter how hard I try to keep moving forward, I get kicked in the teeth and knocked on my ass.

I am tired.

After my surprise (and somewhat miserable failure) going away party for Skylar, when I was pulling into my driveway, I stopped in the field and got out of the car. Because I’m stressed, and sick, and exhausted, and honestly.. I’m just not sure what to do anymore.

And there it is. The forest. The field. The sunset. Calling me. Some desperate begging from the earth to just go. Leave. Forget everything and explore.

Obviously, I didn’t run off on some grand adventure. But I did walk around for a few minutes, taking in the quiet and letting myself calm down. I don’t feeling one-hundred percent better, but I’m not having a panic attack at least.

And it’s peaceful in the deep
Cathedral where you cannot breathe
No need to pray, no need to speak
Now I am under all

And it’s breaking over me
A thousand miles down to the sea bed
Found the place to rest my head
Never let me go

I really could use that vacation right now. Is it the 17th yet? Because I’d greatly like to not be Angel for a little while. Oh well. Until later,

~Angel

Things will look up.

Posted: June 2, 2013 by Angel Young in Uncategorized
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