I watched a special on HBO while stuck in my house due to an ice storm this weekend. It was called “Every Brilliant Thing”, and it’s definitely worth checking out. But, it inspired me. I want to start making a list of every brilliant thing to me in life. Everything that makes life worth living.
It’s no secret that I struggle with depression. I have for over half of my life, now. Usually, I manage just fine. But some days, it gets to me. It’s like a poison spreading through my system, leaving me weak. I can’t find the light, and that’s my biggest problem in that state of mind: I’m lost in the darkness, and cannot find the good to pull me out of it.
So, I’m giving myself a list of things. Things to read and remember what makes me even slightly happy. I’m giving myself a way out of the darkness.
Let’s start by cheating a bit with my list of things I was thankful for a few posts ago:
1.) Movie nights with someone you love.
2.) My Batman collection.
3.) My nieces.
4.) Fur babies.
5.) Feeling inspired.
6.) Productive nights of insomnia.
7.) Feeling accomplished.
8.) Qdoba nacho dates with my best friend.
9.) The hunt for collection things.
10.) Long calls with your favorite person.
11.) Clear nights with the moon and stars shining bright.
12.) Hoodie weather.
13.) Nature walks / Hikes.
14.) Road trips with good company and good music.
15.) The exhilaration on your favorite rides.
16.) Doing something kind for someone else, and knowing they appreciated it.
17.) Knowing this was the first December in a few years I didn’t have a surgery scheduled.
18.) The catalyst of meeting Kevin Smith a little over one year ago.
19.) Filling up a box of comics.
20.) The excitement of somewhere new.
21.) Being so happy that I can’t stop the big, dorky grins.
22.) Painting with music blaring days.
23.) Adventure.
24.) Chinese food.
25.) Supporting the dreams and projects of others.
26.) The Bat Force / Bat Force Radio while working on my collection.
27.) Naps.
28.) My fandoms.
29. ) People equally passionate about the same things I am.
30.) Good memories.
31.) Cards Against Humanity nights.
32.) My closest friends.
33.) My BEST friend.
34.) Everything about a certain someone.
Now, let’s add a few more on, to make it a proper new post:
35.) Meeting your heroes.
36.) Comic Cons
37.) Finding new movies you absolutely love.
38.) The song that becomes Our Song
39.) Comfy socks.
40.) The first day of feeling better after being sick.
41.) Peanut Butter M&Ms
42.) Art days after school in high school, working on projects with people that meant the world to me.
43.) Hot apple cider in my Ouija mug when I’m sick.
44.) Good, long conversations.
45.) Dressing up as Harley Quinn
46.) Poetry
47.) The work of Charles Bukowski
48.) Unexpected gifts of things you want, but didn’t ask for.
49.) When the person you fall in love with, falls in love with you.
50.) Happy dances.
There we have it. My first 50 things. I hope to read through them when I’m down, and then add to them, and hopefully use this tool to pull myself back out of the grips of depression.
~Angel
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