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“In the face of such hopelessness as our eventual, unavoidable death, there is little sense in not at least trying to accomplish all of your wildest dreams in life.” – Kevin Smith, Tough Sh*t: Life Advice From a Fat, Lazy Slob Who Did Good.

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All week, I’ve devoted time when I get home to writing. I had a migraine, and still made myself power through outlining three chapters. The next night, after finishing my taxes, despite having another migraine, I started writing a few pages of a chapter. Not the word counts I need to have if I want to do this for a living, I know. But the point is that I’m making a routine for myself again, despite what my body wants me to do.

Why have I been so determined, even when I have been in rough shape the last several weeks?

I have been wanting to read Kevin Smith’s memoir for a little while now, and after meeting him in Reno, it’s become a mission I have been set on. Finally, I got my (signed) copy and dove right in. That’s where I found the quote above. And it hit me. I met him during a very bad disease flare. I finally got his book, and was reading this quote, during ANOTHER bad disease flare. It resonated with me. The more I thought on it, the more I read it, the more it became something I felt I needed to read.

It isn’t as though I haven’t had similar bursts of motivation, or even inspiration based on a similar concept. But it’s the fact that someone I admired so much, that brought so much happiness when I was so miserable, had written this quote, and I had read it while yet again miserable…

It sparked the motivation I needed.

I will die. Everyone does. And what scares me more than the idea of dying, is feeling like I’ve wasted life and talent and drive. I can BE the person I want to be. I just have to DO IT.

So I’ve been writing, and keeping up with Wandering NerdGirl, and trying revive Hail to the Geek, Baby (which I haven’t had time to post on in FOREVER), and rebuilding my photography portfolio to take it in a direction I’d like it to be in. I’m working on cutting out soda again (UGH) and eating healthier options so my body is treated better. I’ve been working on myself and working at my dreams. And it feels pretty damn good.

Speaking of taking pictures for my portfolio…:

Some pictures my best friend, Brittaney, and I took the weekend before.

So, yeah. I’m doing things. And stuff. And trying to get somewhere again. Because I’m tired of talking about things and not doing enough of them. Health and depression can back off. It’s time for me to everything I can, while I can.

~Angel

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The Waiting Game. Something that makes your teeth grind and makes you want to pull your hair out. It makes sleeping difficult, dreams a chaotic mess, dread take up residence in your chest, and just gives you this all around mopey and/or bitchy disposition. And it sucks. It sucks so very, very much.

I’m currently playing the Waiting Game. For my best friend, Quackers the Wonder Duck aka Daisy Von Doom aka Brittaney to come home from Michigan for the summer – which means photo shoots, chinese food, random dancing, movie nights, shopping, tattoos, and all around epic (mis)adventures. And oodles of pictures to prove it. I. Cannot. Wait.

But, I’m also waiting on some test results right now regarding the Mysterious Sickness of Doom. Seeing if my electrolytes are still out of whack, and also checking to see if I have some stupid rare disease that apparently could have been passed down to me from my dad. Joy..

So, it’s been driving me sorta bonkers, waiting around and all. For obvious reasons.

In the meantime, I’ve been reading. Finished up Anna Dressed in Blood rather quickly, and I gotta say – it was awesome! Can’t wait for the next book in the series.

So, I’ve moved on to the next book, which I borrowed from the boyfriend: “I, Lucifer” by Glen Duncan.

Pretty good, definitely interesting. I’m about halfway through. I would’ve already finished it had it not been for the fact I felt like shit all week last week and spent a lot of time zoning out or trying to sleep. But I should get finished with it soon and move on to my next read!

Definitely wanna throw in there, though, that this is an… R rated book for sure. Don’t just pick it up for some light read. It takes a certain sense of humor, I believe. And the ability to not give a shit about profanity 😉 Obviously, it’s right up my ally.

Now, to return to my day of useless internet addiction (aka Pinterest), planning my August Zombie-themed 22nd birthday party, and finishing I, Lucifer. Yep. I live such an exciting life.

What are you all reading?

~Angel

I have not been having the best of days. So, as I write this, I’m chilling out with my new baby, Sirius – the rescue dog from a post or two ago – and watching Sweeney Todd. I’m playing on Pinterest. Really, it’s a big old “I need a fucking break” kind of day.

I’ve had some incredible shoot ideas lately, and making some plans to really get those taking off. For example, I have two tomorrow with the gorgeous on-the-rise model, Little Red. I love that girl to death, and she can pull off any look you need and is always a delight to work with. ❤ Anywho, a cutesy themed shoot followed by what we’re hoping to have turn out to be a very editorial shoot. I shall post pics, never you worry.

Anyway. I’m going back to being busy. Uh, sorta. I’ll be working on the manuscript and it’s desperately needed round of edits I’m behind on. Hopefully, it won’t be too long until I’m posting an excited OMFG I’M PUBLISHED! post. 😀

~Angel