Everything has been pretty miserable lately, as you could tell from my last post. I started to regain my footing, however, when I managed to get a shoot done, and started letting myself focus on the fact that I’m taking Lillie and Dica to Orlando for the very first time next month. I wasn’t living the dream yet by any means, but I was starting to get better.
And then, things got worse. Things happened I wasn’t anticipating would happen. Things that make everything much, much harder than they need to be. So, I won’t deny it – I broke down yesterday. I cried and felt angry with the world and just everything. How could everything be getting worse AFTER leaving the day job? Things were supposed to be better?
Today, I’m done thinking about it all in a negative way. Sure, there are things I cannot change. But there are also things that ARE in my power to change. So, I’ll work hard and focus and do what I need to do to make myself happy. As much as I like to make everyone else happy and do what I’m supposed to, it’s time I take care of myself.
I’ll post an update on how that is working out for me in a few days.
~Angel
Misadventures of a Misfit 
It is really important that you make yourself happy .Don’t worry .. Hope things will turn out the right way for you . Good Luck and keep fighting 🙂
Thank You! 🙂
Dear Angel,
I’m sorry you’ve had a rough time. Everyone gets overwhelmed sometimes, working through it and adjusting your frame of mind takes practice but it sounds like you are well on your way. You don’t know me but I wanted to tell you, you are not alone! And you will get through this 🙂
-OP
Thank you so much! 🙂 You have no idea how much it means to me!
I love the distinction between what you can and cannot change. Tony Robbins talks about that. He says that if you can focus on the things you CAN change, you can end up changing how the things you can’t change affect you. It’s great 🙂 Glad that you’re letting go of the negativity!
So am I 🙂
One of the things that I came to realize is that one should not define success or failure. The other thing I look is the Serenity Prayer and I stare at it.
I’m still trying to get myself to not define success or failure still. Thank you for commenting. 🙂